deep thinking

who is this guy? (mcm la org tak tau ek, pfft)

He's mine. Tp dulu. And now, it's all over. Whooa, what was happened? Is it true that you guys breakup again? hahaha. Mcm la artis orang nk tanya-tanya gini seh. Kalau bgtau pn org takkan percaya. Sbb selalu jadi. hahah. Only close friends will know how serious our relationship is. Bila bergaduh, bergegar rumah. Burung-burung semua berterbangan. Hebat kan? Yes! Im not kidding okay. It happens only when we're not seeing each other for a month or two month. Hahaha. We fight, we scream, we bullshit each other, complete set ! semua ada. 

Im wondering is it normal happen in this long distance relationship? The first and very foremost, both partners  involved in long distance relationships should have mutual feelings to each other. That’s the very basic. Because long distance relationships won’t work if the two of you are not greatly in love, you will just be fooling yourselves. And in my case, we never have this kind of problem. We're love each other so much. I trusted him, and i know how deep he loves to me. So am i. But the worse part is he has very cronic jealousy problem. And im always became the trouble maker here. So how was that? complicated isn't ?

Second, and of course, love comes together with commitment. Both of you should be committed with each other, that you will be bonded by the love you have disregarding the distance between you and your partner and whatever the struggles may come. We never have problem to give fullest commitment in our relationship. Almost 4 years we're being together. He knows me, i know him very well. It just that, we're not close enough to hangout together, having chit chat in mamak together, sometimes having diner and lunch together, like other couples do. 

Trust and faith also comes together as the third factor and also the most important. Distance between each other may cause you to worry so much. It brought unhealthy and depressing thoughts about your partner. But once you have trust and faith, long distance relationships will never be wasted. Hahaha, this is the worst part in my relationship. This kind of 'term and condition' is longer exist in my relationship. I wrote about this once, in previous post. All the reason and am the one should be blamed. Even though I've my own reason.

Lastly, both of you should be mature enough to handle long distance relationships. Long distance relationships won’t work with people who are childish. It will just drive your partner crazy. Am i mature enough to handle this long distance relationship? This kind of question should be asked before i met this guy. Not after 4 years we being together. lol. By the way, it makes sense. Maybe it is true, im not mature as it should be. But it is his responsibility right? To guide me, to understand me. It takes time. Most important, he should be very very and very patient person.  

he's very nice to my sister also.

p/s: Tiba-tiba lagu Nera seakan memahami hatiku ini. Very down deep and from bottom of my heart, i loved, always, and will loves him so very much until death do us apart. Insyallah, hanya mampu merancang tp segalanya ketentuan Allah. Till then my dear, salam.

- exam mood, 23:17 pm-